Thursday, April 9, 2009


I have been away too long and for good reason. Too many things on my mind and in my heart to even think about posting anything. I have been trying to keep up on reading and leaving comments when I can and I will try to get back into the swing of things again.

Now back to the topic at hand. A few weeks ago I had an ultrasound done, a follow up to my mammogram. They saw something, well duh, otherwise I would not have been there. So, I go for my ultrasound and wait for those results to come in. A message was left on my cell phone and I had to call the doctor's office back and then wait for them to call me back, they were in the office but had training that day. I talked to the doctor and she tells me they for sure see something and it is.... Are you sitting down for this? A breast tumor, I can still hear the ringing in my ears from those two words. Everything begins to flash in your mind, the what ifs, my family, why is this happening and how do we deal with this. All of this while still on the phone with the doctor only half hearing everything she is saying. I do hear, in between all of my thoughts, she is referring me to a surgeon and to see what they think. Then I hear another word, but yet a little magical, benign breast tumor. Here I am on the phone, making dinner with my family right there in the kitchen with me and trying to hold back the tears, especially when you hear that specific word. Still, she wants me to go to the surgeon see what to do and weigh my options. I get off the phone and tell Doug and worry, granted they said benign but it is only natural to worry. What should I do? Aspirate, take it out completely or leave it alone for the time being and tolerate the pain? A few days later the nurse calls and has set up an appointment for me, I know who the surgeon is, he has operated on Doug and my mother-in-law has gone to him. Doug is still hurting from his fall, so he decides to stay home with the boys, it is nap time which is good. I take my films and have an exam and the surgeon suggests the three things I stated above but to continue to watch it and if it does change then we will definitely need to take it out. But for the time being I have decided to tolerate the pain, more of a throbbing pain, needles and I are not the best of friends and that just scares me to death. All of that worry and praying has turned into good news. Now if we could get Doug's back and shoulder to feeling better we would be 100% around here.


megan k said...

This may sound redundant, but try not to worry.. I say that also to myself for my 'issues.'

We are praying.

Melinda said...

Oh sweetie - I'm not even real sure what to say...I'm sorry that it is a tumor but am thrilled that it is benign. I will continue to keep you (and your hubby) in my prayers.

Kristen@nosmallthing said...

I have been wondering about your results. Glad to hear that you have some answers, and that it is benign. I'm sure you are scared by all of this... Give it some time, and the path to take will become clear. In the meantime, enjoy your boys. Have a blessed Easter!

Debbie said...

I'm so relieved to hear it was benign.
I think you are making some good decisions.